No Control

Shaking.
Uncontrollable urges that don’t allow me to stand still.
I shake when i don’t want to.
Because of people who can’t control their anger.

I cry.
Tears of fear roll down my cheeks.
Those who made me cry show no remorse.
Heartless creatures with no soul whatsoever.

Anxiety grows.
I can’t function as i used to.
I constantly watch over my shoulder.
I fear the animal who has no intention of stopping the torment.

Depression sets in.
The threats, the anger, the heartlessness.
It’s all too much to handle, my body can’t take it.
My mind starts to thin violent thoughts of self-harm.

Death seems safer.
It seems like a better option than living.
It makes me feel like it’s the option to take the pain away.
There seems to be no other way t make things better.

I plead.
I plead for help.
I scream out for help but i have no voice.
No one can see my pain or hear me reaching out for the help i need.

It’s gone full circle.
My body trembles and shakes.
I am back to where i started, I’m shaking.
Those uncontrollable urges are back and i can’t stand still…

If Tim Tams disappeared tomorrow

If Tim Tams disappeared tomorrow

Tim Tams are such a tasty treat
For most people that I know,
They could eat an entire pack
Which their waist lines won’t even show.
But I am not like those friends
I find these treats quite sickly,
They are for me a seldom treat
To enjoy and seduce me.
My favourites would be white choc
Or a dark choc with mint crème,
Funnily enough though I’m not a bickie fan
In my possession they are rarely seen.
Although if Tim Tams disappeared tomorrow
I think it would be quite upsetting,
They are after all, an Aussie icon
The rest of the world- they are really missing!
Tim Tams may not be everyone’s cup of tea
But they do seem to be quite popular,
I hope they continue to be seen on the shelves
So people can have them with their cuppas, ha?
If Tim Tams disappeared tomorrow
I would shed a little tear,
Another little Aussie being put to sleep
It is something that I fear.
Two crunchy little biscuits
With a tasty crème in between,
All covered in delicious chocolate
A chocolate biscuit lover’s dream.